A fellow blogger asked the following question on Twitter; What does it feel like to have ME/CFS? This is my response;
I feel like I’m in a constant state of confusion – in a daze. It’s like I’m looking at my life through frosted glass.
I feel hungover and drunk at the same time. I feel like I haven’t slept for a week and I’ve just run a marathon. Everything hurts, it even hurts to think.
Pain and bone crunching fatigue are constant companions. I feel weak, heavy and exhausted. It feels like someone has removed all my blood and replaced it with lead. It feels like gravity is playing tricks with me.
My senses are heightened, yet I feel disconnected from reality.
It feels like there is a war raging inside my body. A battle I cannot control or win.
I feel like I’ve been poisoned, like someone has drugged me in my sleep. My skin prickles and crawls like there are a thousand tiny insects just under my skin.
It feels like my body is falling apart and I’m defenceless to stop it. It feels like my body is betraying me and shutting down.
I feel like I no longer belong to the world I once knew so well, but not just that, it feels like that world is now my enemy.
I feel like I’m hanging precariously off a cliff, desperately holding on by my fingertips, knowing that at any moment I could fall.
A life with ME/CFS is like a non-existence. I’m alive, yet not really living. My life is on hold – I’m in limbo. I miss so much about the person I used to be, and about my old life.
ME/CFS is relentless and unforgiving. It’s a devastating illness that steals lives.
I’m not saying any of this to get sympathy. I share my experiences to educate and to show other ME/CFS sufferers they are not alone. We deserve fair treatment. We deserve a chance of a future without pain.
Thank you for reading
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